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June 25, 2007, 8:26 pm
Filed under: Life

Mencari Janda

People ohh people… you makes me smiles everyday… 🙂


I’ve Been Defeated
June 19, 2007, 8:55 pm
Filed under: Arts, Life, Touge

Kuala Kelawang Touge

As the tittle says, I’ve been defeated in Kuala Kelawang touge last Saturday, June 16th 2007. I’ve been smoked by Toyota Starlet EP71 1.3 Turbo. All this while I’ve had this nightmare that on one find day there’ll be one bloody small and compact car with enough power to smoke me bad. There he is.. Starlet Turbo has smoked my 4G92 NA engine.

I’ve win him on uphill run but I’ve lost to him on downhill run… It was sweet learning process for me. So, here I am… My motivation is down a bit.. And I’ve made this one little drawing showing what’s happen that night.. And how on earth he’d smoked me with one bloody hell skills that was suppose not to be made by any FF cars…

I’ll meet him again soon… 🙂

The Cure Is Finally Here!
June 11, 2007, 5:35 pm
Filed under: Life, Music

Robert Smith of The Cure

Finally… And I am not dreaming.. The Cure is set to rock Singapore on this coming 1st of August… It’s The Cure oi..!! They’ve been my ‘personal’ cure since the 80s. The band started out in 1976 known as ‘Easy Cure’. I’ve followed the band carrier since then. Collecting each of their album and single collection plus their t-shirts, biography books and much more stuff. God damn it..!! Yes, I’m not dreaming… The Cure is coming..!! This is the most exciting news for me in ages…

The Cure’s main idol, Robert Smith lyrics has really cured me from life disease and such. So I’ll definitely will not give a no-no to this concert. I personally think this is one in a lifetime chances since they’re already old. And I’m old too. This will probably be their one and only concert in South East Asia…! Although I almost wont believe it till i see the date listed on their website on the 1st of August 2007.. And to Robert Smith, you have made mine and many others year..!

The Cure and Robert Smith was one of the big reason I formed my first band, Extraterrestrial then later on Death Becomes Her or most of KL gig goers would call it DBH. Thanks to my cousin who’ve lend me his ‘Three Imaginary Boys’ and ‘Boys Don’t Cry’ album somewhere in 1983.. I was only 5 years old at that time.. Can you imagine..? I still remember singing along the ‘Drip.. Drip.. Drip…’ part from the ’10:15 Saturday Night’ song. The rest is history… Only to realise after that I’ve been collecting one album after another untill my working and adult era…

Plus I’ve too many heart broken memories, with no one to turns to but The Cure was always there to cure me.. To cure my broken heart. Robert Smith lyrics and The Cure’s music did blend so well that they managed to throw me on my lullabies memory.. *sigh* Remember those days where Benson & Hedges used to have one TV show called ‘Golden Dreams..? I did enroll too and received one phone call from them asking about my dream.. I told them that my golden dreams is to play live set with The Cure in Royal Albert Hall of London.. Sadly to say, they think that my dream was too much for them.. Well, that’s The Cure at their 30 years of career.. And my stories as one of their biggest fan…

So, wait no more as The Cure is finally here to teach all of SE Asian the real value of music. To ‘cure’ every of their fans. To draw big question mark to those who think they’re ’emo’ enough or they’re as dark as ‘My Chemical Romance’.. This is The Cure, and they’re the real thing..! The ‘God-Father’ of all or may I say, ‘Goth-Father’…?

I’m booking my tickets now… 🙂

Here are the ticket price.. SGD $178, $148, $188, $78. Another set that might kill you.. But who care..? I’m going definitely…! For more info on tickets, please visits:

Live Nation Asia

Or go directly to The Cure Official for more info on the concert..

Robert Smith of The Cure

One SMS That Changed My View
June 8, 2007, 9:00 pm
Filed under: Life


Before my weeding took place a week ago, I’ve been busy driving here and there trying to send my invitation cards to everyone that matters the most in my life.. I call up everyone. Sending SMSes until I get one SMS that changed my entire view on what we called ‘BEST FRIENDS’…

Probably I’m the one who felt such urges of excitements and feeling enthusiastic about my big day or she are the one who started out everything.. Ruined everything on my big day.. Spoiled every inch of my moods… But I have a strong feeling about this.. It stays firms in my heart, I’m not the one who to blame…

Well here’s what happen…
On May 16, 2007 (Wednesday), two weeks before my wedding.. An SMS..
ME : When can i see you? Need to pass my invitation cards to you.. My wedding is coming over as you know it, so are you free tonight?
SHE : Sorry, I’m not free tonight…
ME : Okay then, whatever and whenever you’re free, do let me know..

Then the SMS continue again on May 22nd but we was talking about payment on my previos performances. I was testing her.. And as my expectations, she never mentioned anything about she wanted to collect my cards.. Then we continue again on SMSes on May 28th.. This time, I’ve driven up my self to her house to hand over the cards my self…
ME : Where are you?
SHE :Here in Puchong…
ME :What the hell are you doing in Puchong?
SHE : I God dammit stay here
ME :Since when..? and who’s at your Melawati House..?
SHE :My parent are still in Melawati.. Whay so many question..?
ME :Hmm.. So, you don’t know my wedding is on this coimng Sunday.. It’s ok I’ll just pass the cards to your parent then… Seems like you didn’t care to noticed at all…
SHE :Excuse me, no one even bother to tell me and suddenly I’m at fault to not notice your wedding. WISH I COULD BE SORRY, BUT I’M NOT..!!
ME :I think your family semua dah tido.. I dah leave it all inside your post box…
SHE : I’ll check it tomorrow…
ME : Ha Ha Ha… Remember or not last time I message you telling that I wanted to send you my invitation card and you’ve mentioned about you being busy and such… Don’t say I don’t remind you… Fuck! just forget it, I don’t really care anymore…

And as came to my knowledge, the night before my wedding i.e. June 2nd, she hasn’t check her parent post box yet and was asking for a direction from my friends, Fird… If this is what you called best mates, best friends, brother and sisters.. Fuck off…!! Your appearence on my wedding cannot changed anything.. No sorry. No nothing from you, besides that silly smiles you wear on your face on my wedding day…

I’m sorry to say this, I can’t accept this. I can’t tolerate. If you can’t respect me as your friends, please respect my big day. Please at least respect my existence in your life. I’m sorry if this would be our future and another saddened our-life-history in the making.. Sad to say, you’re such a big imagination person but tiny little stupid brain… Stop calling me your brother..!!

I guess, ‘sorry’ is the hardest things for you to say…

NOTE : I usually didn’t write anything personal here about my life and it’s surrounding other than my political shits and stuff… But I am so mad up until today.. So, this is an excuses..!

I’ve End Up My Bachelor Period
June 3, 2007, 11:27 pm
Filed under: Life

One Family

Finally, at the age of almost 29 years old, I’ve end up my bachelor period with someone I’ve known for quite a while. For quite a years. Someone I’ve known since my ‘darkest’ days as a teenagers. Someone who seems to understand on everything I’ve faced wether it’s good or bad. Someone who willing to share any of my interest… Touge. Music. Travelling. Photography. Almost anything.. She is someone that I might be sharing my balance of life… More or less another 30 years of age that I can’t really figure out what it’s gonna be… And I trully hope that she’ll be here with me from this day onwards.. That’s her.. That’s Mimie.. My Wife.. And I’m a husband now and hopefully soon I’m gonna be a father… One Family.. Finally for me..!

Friends and families from all over the globe came on my wedding day. Just name it, my close buddy, my music friends, my cars enthusiast, political and anti-goverment friends, ex-school mates, ex-college mates, my travelling mates.. Faces from Denmark, UK and Japan was all over.. They’ve comes to celebrates.. To Celebrates me that I am finally gonna have a family of my own… Again.

It’s not that I’m saying that I don’t have a family before this. I do. The thing is, I’ve spend my past 29 years growing up alone. I grew up on the street. Learning everything, good and bad from the street and friends.. It’s not that I’m saying my family was broken.. No..! My family is good enough for me.. And I pray they’ll continue be in this situation forever.. At least until the day my mother close her eyes and my father stop breathing.. At least let it be until the day I die.. I want them to leave the world happily as the days they were born on this very earth.. smiling and crying for everyone’s attention… So, they’re not the one who to blame.. I’m the one who choose to live my life this way.. I wanted to be bad. I wanted to learn everything from the people around me and I’m proud of it.. Here I am.. Standing today. Feeling proud with this hybrid thinking of mine… With this knowledge and everything, I hope I could share it with the people that needed me or with just anyone else..

To each and every of my buddies that came and celebrates me, I must say THANK YOU and always remember my dear friends.. You guys means the whole world to me.. You guys will always be my families.. Wish me luck for me to face the next coming 30 years (probably) as one happy family, as the greatest husband on earth and hopefully soon to be the most faithfull father in the world…

Amin ya rabbalalamin…

Thank you mom. You’re the most wonderful things I ever had in my life.
Thank you dad. For being so understanding with my attitude and ego.
Thank you brothers and sisters. For cheering me up whenever I needed you guys.
Thank you all… Friends, for teaching me everything in this world.